keeper_of_woe

well hell

Sun, 19 Dec 2004 10:34:16 GMT

i was answering the questions to another questionnaire and i pressed ctrl+r and it refreshed and i lost everything had only been doing it for an hour or 2....oh well!

I steal these from other people! yay!

Sun, 19 Dec 2004 09:44:33 GMT

Time starting: 1:13AM
Date: 12-18-04
Birthday: april 4th 1988
Color of eyes: brown
Hair: brown-ish black-ish
Height: damned if i know
Weight: 135?
Shoe size: 12
Who lives with you?: mother, father, brother, nephew, dog

---RIGHT NOW---

Wearing: boxers...with stripes...
I'm feeling: bored
Eating: candy cane
Drinking: water
Thinking about: the thin line between love and hate and/or nothing
Listening to: farewell to friends - matchbook romance
Watching: Inuyasha
Talking to: Ash, my brother

1.What is your Full Name? Robert Luzberto Martinez
2. What color pants are you wearing right now? i don't wear pants
4. What are the last 2 digits of your phone number: 70
5. What was the last thing you ate: candy cane
6. If you were a crayon what color would you be: white
7. How is the weather right now: cold
8. Last person you talked to on the phone: Yvette(sister)
9. First thing you notice about the opposite sex: smile
10. Do you like the person who sent this to you: i found it...
11. How are you today: could be better
12. Favorite Drink: water
14. Favorite Sport to watch:
17. Do you wear contacts: yes
18. Siblings: Yvette, Jeannette, Luis
19. Favorite Month:
20. Favorite Food: cookies
21. Last Movie you Watched:
22. Favorite Day of the Year: last day of school
23 Are you too shy to ask someone out: yeah
24. Summer or Winter: winter
25. Hugs or Kisses? wha?!
26. Chocolate or Vanilla? chocolate
27. Do you want your friends to write back? sure...?
28. Who is most likely to respond:
29: Who is least likely to respond:
31. What books are you reading?: i dont know how to read...
32. What's on your mouse pad?: its maroon...
34. What did you do last night: slept and watched tv
35. Can you touch your nose with your tongue: yes
36. Favorite Flower: non dead ones
37. What's the first thing you think of when you wake up in the morning?: what time is it...?
38. What kind of sheets do you sleep in? my comforter which i would take to school if i knew people wouldnt harass me about it... *cry*
39. How do you feel about PDA? the who?
40. Who pays the bills in your home? anyone with money
41. Where is your favorite vacation spot? i like the journey more than the destination
42. Favorite hobby: sleeping/reading a good book/video games/pretending i can play mallets...
43. What is your biggest regret?: not taking the time to tell people what i really feel and not doing what i know i should do
44. What do you think the perfect date would be??: just hanging out with that person
45. If you could be invincible to one thing what would it be?: me vs. the world?
46.What would be the first thing you would purchase if you were a millionaire for a day?: everything i would need to live on my own
47. What kind of life, other then the one you have now, would you have like to have had: one where i never move
48. If there was 1 person from your past you could see again who would it be and why: a girl i once knew...leave it at that
49. What would be your dream profession? professional bum
50. What kind of animal would you be if you had to come back as an animal in a future life? a zebra...?
51. What is your favorite restaurant?: Ohana Hawaiian Island BBQ!
52. where did this question go? you tell me?
53. If you could have a hot date or intellectual conversation with anyone, living or dead, who would it be? intellectual conversations are just more appealing to me regardless of whom they may be
54. What is your most reoccurring dream you have had?: that i still lived in RSM
55. What is one of your most embarrassing moments?: everyday?
56. What city would you really want to live in?: MV
57. As a kid, what did you think you would "BE" when you grew up?: a science teacher
58. Who is the funniest person that has ever made you laugh famous or not? i usually am laughing at myself...
59. Tell one thing about yourself that would surprise people if they knew? i can cook?
60. What is the weirdest dream you have ever had? that i was a superhero
61. If you could spend the rest of your life in one place where would it be? a living space that looked out onto the ocean
62. If you could spend the rest of your life with one person who would it be? a person that i could call my best friend but love them just the same

---HAVE YOU EVER---

Ever been so drunk you blacked out?: no
Been hurt emotionally?: yes
Had an imaginary friend: yes
Cried during a Movie: yes
Had a crush on a teacher: no
Thought a cartoon character was hot?: no
Been on stage: yes
Cut your hair: yes
Been sarcastic: always

---FAVORITES----

Shampoo: whatever i can find
Day/Night: night
Color: red
Lace or Satin: satin
Fave cartoon character:
Fave Movie:
Fave Ice Cream: peppermint!
Fave Subject: musical things

---IN THE LAST 24 HOURS, HAVE YOU---

Cried: no
Worn a skirt: yes...i mean no
Met someone new: no
Cleaned your room: yes
Drove a car: no

---DO YOU BELIEVE IN---

Yourself: no
Your friends: yes
Santa Claus: no
Tooth Fairy: no
GOD: yes
Destiny/Fate: somewhat
Angels: yes
Ghosts: sure
Evil spirits: why not
UFO's: we cant be the only ones in existance now can we? that would be an awful waste of space

---FRIENDS AND LIFE---

Do you have a girl/boyfriend?: i wish...
Do you like anyone?: sure
Who have you known the longest out of ur friends?: greg since i still keep in contact with him randomly
Who's the loudest?:
Who's the weirdest?:
Who do you go to for advice?: myself
Whats the best feeling?: to believe that everything is going to be okay and to not have a care in the world because you are caught up in a moment that transcends time and space

Wed, 12 May 2004 03:01:01 GMT

I can not stay here! So yeah life is crazy as usual but I don't really care anymore, come what may I will be ready for it. I have been a fool in my thinking and I finally see more clearer than I did before. It does not matter what goes on around me as long as I keep my head clear I can make it through. Shut Up by Black Eyed Peas is such an awesome song. I will be in Orlando for the next few days so that will be just lovely, hopefully you won't do anything I wouldn't do while I am gone.

Tue, 11 May 2004 05:18:10 GMT

I can't og on living like this anyone one minute everything is fine and the next more crap just brings me back to the place I was before, and I am sick of it. I have gone insane trying to right too many wrongs at once and I can no longer surpress my emotions toward them all. So as I slowly but surely breakdown from the inside out, I hope I don't lose all hope in what the world has in store. And I may one day trust someone by their word and word alone. So until next time, this is good bye for forever and a day.

Tue, 11 May 2004 04:53:33 GMT

I have nothing new to put in this journal so just read the entries below.

Mon, 10 May 2004 02:42:52 GMT

I don't know anything at all, and I am somebody else.

This goes for anyone who read will ever read or has read my journal entries. And it is that you don't know me. No matter how hard you try to piece together what you think you know about me to try and create some idea of who I might be, it will always be wrong. So let it be known that you will never know me for who I really am because none of you ever knew the real me to begin with.

Sun, 09 May 2004 05:54:41 GMT

So now that I download the wrong song but find a cooler one in the process! And going out on a saturday night and NOT doing anything is alot more fun than actually doing something, I may seem like I am being sarcastic but it was pretty fun to say the least. I don't like to list the things I do because that takes time and time is always being wasted away, like me typing this now. So I should stop.

Sun, 09 May 2004 03:10:00 GMT

Time for my happy journal entry!

So now that the whole world is overrated. and YEAH!

"Don't stop,
never give up
hold your head high
and reach the top
Let the world see
what you have got
Bring it all back to you
Dream of falling in love
anything you've been thinking
of when the world seems
to get too tough
Bring it all back to you"

Fri, 07 May 2004 05:29:25 GMT

I just can't anymore, I don't even know what it is anymore. Something I am missing? But how can you lost something you never had? I don't even know what evokes these random thoughts that I have anymore. But obviously I can't seem to decipher their hidden meaning.

I hate the fact that I am forced to live in a world where no matter how hard someone tries, they just get screwed in the end. There has to be something more that can be done to give people the power to change things that are not meant to be tampered with. But who knows? I lose myself in my stupid thoughts of thinking that things can change for the better, but they don't.

I should get a picture for this damn journal already...

NEW ENTRY!

Thu, 06 May 2004 04:52:47 GMT

So now that everyone believes me to be emo because I turn to this journal when I may feel depressed but not need to when I don't.

Anywho, I guess I don't get marked truant for not going to school. Milk Tea tastes good. Last time I miss 7th period to have funny conversations inside Lollicup. And then wasting time to not go home before 3:03PM but yeah I left out tons of details but you are over it.

Fri, 30 Apr 2004 05:38:04 GMT

I feel like crap. Mentally, physically and emotionally. Really sucks but what can you do. Since the only sense of control that I once had is out of my reach and now I do not know what to do but sit and wait for all of this to just end, one way or another. I don't even know what the hell I am doing anymore. Not like it matters anyway. And talking to this journal can't be healthy, that's for sure. But I have probably already gone crazy after all. What more do we need for the strength to accept the things which we can not change? If I knew that, I wouldn't feel like this now.

Sun, 25 Apr 2004 05:49:56 GMT

funny stuff, i actually use my journal for its true intention and everyone and their mother has to have their say about it. oh well

so i am moving sometime at the end of next week, do not know where but i am moving. maybe down the street, maybe to another state. who knows, because i sure as hell don't. and putting this in here i am only setting myself up for sympathy and more nagging questions, i don't want either.

What the hell is going on?

Sat, 24 Apr 2004 06:43:14 GMT

So much crap I have to deal with lately that it is quite overwhelming and I know everyone has their problems but If anyone has gone through all that I am going through and survived to tell the tale, I commend them for they determination and willingness not to give up. I have no reason to go on, falling right now with no intention of getting up. But no matter how much I try to rid myself of it all it just keeps coming back in a new form, so there is nothing I can do but just gather all of this pain and silence it deep down inside until the next time it resurfaces.

Life ultimately sucks.

Wed, 21 Apr 2004 22:50:19 GMT

So no matter what you seem to do whether it be noble or for the good of another, it always seems to be that bad things happen to those good people whom are trying to make things better. So I say screw it. Why try to make life easier for others when life for yourself is hard? Heh, I guess that is what I get for saying I don't care, when I actually do...

Sun, 11 Apr 2004 09:13:21 GMT

Same old stuff never ends. Had finals for SCPA this weekend and placed 3rd taking a Bronze Medal and don't try eating it because I already did. *insert things that happened here* and then I went home.

Should I smile because we are friends
or cry because that is all we will ever be...

Tue, 06 Apr 2004 04:10:36 GMT

RULES:
1. Put your birth month in an entry.
2. Strike out anything that doesn't apply to you.
3. Put all twelve months under a livejournal cut.

APRIL: ~~Active and dynamic.~~ ~~Decisive and hasty but~~ tends to regret. ~~Attractive and affectionate to oneself.~~ Strong mentality. ~~Loves attention.~~ Diplomatic. Consoling, friendly and solves people's problems. Brave and fearless. Adventurous. Loving and caring. ~~Suave and~~ generous. Emotional. Aggressive. ~~Hasty.~~ Good memory. Moving Motivates oneself and others. Sickness usually of the head and chest. ~~Sexy in a way that only their lover can see.~~

My Birthday

Mon, 05 Apr 2004 01:47:40 GMT

Well today is my birthday seems like everyother day except I got a few things.

Tally of gifts in chronological order:
-Blue Bucket filled with random stuff
Peeps
John Wayne DVDs
Flopper
Bad Girl sticker
-Chocolate Factory items
Chocolate
Cup cake white chocolate thing
-A cake
With "Happy Birthday HD" on it
-T.D.O. Antenna Topper
-CP Player
With a remote control
-Miniature Sculptures
Bach
Chopin
Beethoven
(and they scare me)
-A Honda Civic
Maroon-ish in color
-New Mouse for Computer

The day isn't over yet so who knows what else I will get.

hahaha!

Tue, 30 Mar 2004 05:38:47 GMT

So now that the WORLD as a whole is out of control I can't help but laugh. Because everyone need to simmer down or something. Since everyone has to have their say on the matters at hand and what not but whatever I am just an observer of things so I can't do much more than watch people make complete fools of themselves.

ON A LIGHTER NOTE! *insert stupid things here*

Lobster?!

started doing this thing for a while.

Sun, 21 Mar 2004 23:35:01 GMT

i used to do it a long time ago and i recently started up again. see when you sleep for the night or take a nap and have a dream. when you wake up, you write about the dream and what happened in it. and then you think about what it could possibly mean.

i just had the strangest dream but it sure made a lot of sense after thinking about it. i am not trying to say i can interpret dreams, i just like to think that i can.

blah!

Sun, 21 Mar 2004 04:35:18 GMT

I am bored and sick. So today I was forced to help my sister move even though I am dying of something, and it was not fun. And I sat around and did nothing. Watch the Back to the Future trilogy, that was exciting! And then I would try to sleep but since my neck is somewhat broken on one side I couldn't and then other stuff. I then I was bored again.

Time.

Sat, 20 Mar 2004 04:10:32 GMT

Time is like a flowing river-- it can not be sped up or slowed down. We must float along at the pace it has chosen.

yay! for being sick!

Fri, 19 Mar 2004 22:33:33 GMT

so now that my being sick all the time may be related to stress or something or the sort, that is always good to know. but other than that staying home was fun sleeping, sleeping and some more sleeping. and my neck is all screwed up because i can't turn it to the right...at all so the left is my new found friend.

OUIT OF CONTROL!

Fri, 19 Mar 2004 05:40:36 GMT

People need to not sell there bodies to the night(or day). SO practice was interesting to say the least. Since everything is locked in the theatre we only had mallet instruments and such so the mallets stayed and "practiced". As we had Dance Party 5000 and then spectators end the fun. Then watching battery actually practice and then putting away the floor while selling your body to the night and then having social hour afterward and putting away the beast and then going home since that is what people SHOULD do after practice. But now I am home and no one else is back. OH well!

By Myself

Wed, 17 Mar 2004 05:24:34 GMT

That song reflects actually reflects on what I have been feeling for quite some time. If you just look at the lyrics you will understand.

Other then that! I love school and all the crap that comes with it. People are stupid because they are too blind to see, I will just leave it at that. But it is sad when I have to use an online journal to express how I feel. Oh well, that is what I get for being the person that I am.

overwhelmed

Thu, 11 Mar 2004 02:27:47 GMT

I feel like I am going crazy. I can't do my homework and I can't concentrate on one thing without be distracted by another. I need like a break for some many things right now, but I don't have the power to do that sort of thing. I probably have gone crazy with the things I have doone over the past few days, all of which I regret and that sucks. Regret is so hard to shake off, because it is always haunting you no matter what you do. So that is always fun! But yeah. Oh! I think I was supposed to help wash the floor but I like didn't know that they were doing it today until today, so oh well what can you do? Not like it matters anyway, plenty of able bodied peoples are helping/helped so yeah. Back to sitting listening to to music and all that nonsense when I should be doing homework but I don't because I see no use anymore.